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Memento Reflection


After reading Memento Mori, I thought about what my life would be like if I lived in 10 minute cycles. It was pretty scary. I thought living in these cycles would not allow me to experience life.

But then I continued thinking and I realized something. Living in these cycles might bring me bliss. Life is horrible. We live to live then we die. When we live, there's so much stress and pain and so many problems with the world. However, if I live in these cycles, I'll never feel stress or pain or "experience" these problems because I will never remember them. This idea seemed beautiful. I just need to stab a hole into my brain and I'll be set free!



But that's not how life works. This life sucks. Will I be confined in a mental institution like Earl? If I'm not, I won't live a good life. I'll live a meaningless life. I can't learn or get things done efficiently. I'll have to be taken care of constantly and waste someone else's time. All the positive emotions I feel will be swept away every 10 minutes.

And even though the world sucks, maybe I wouldn’t live in bliss. In order to reach the highest highs, you have to go to the lowest lows. If I never experienced the lowest lows, I don’t think my life wouldn’t feel as complete. The happiness I’d feel from not realizing pain would probably be the same as the happiness from watching an Instagram reel. You feel happy, but it’s an empty happiness.

I’ve sort of experienced this in real life. I remember one of my friends told me about his great grandfather. He said he had to visit him on the weekend because he was losing his memory. He couldn’t recognize certain things. My friend laughed it off and I did too, but if that happened to me, I think I would cry. So, if I stabbed a hole into my brain, I think I would break the hearts of my loved ones. I can’t do that.

So I guess living in these 10 minute cycles isn’t too great. The negatives heavily outweigh the positives. I’ll just appreciate the life I have. Even with all the struggles life gives me, it’s always so satisfying getting over them and feeling accomplished. For me, living an accomplished life will always be better than an empty one.

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